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Part I: Arose

If I could rewind time like a tape
Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
Cut down on the Valium, I’da heard everything
But death is turning so definite—wait!
They got me all hooked up to some machine
I love you, being, didn’t want you to know I was struggling
Feels like I’m underwater submerged like a submarine
Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren’t functioning
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
It’s arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they’re unplugging me
And it’s your birthday, Jade, I’m missing your birthday
Baby girl, I’m sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
But, girls, you can just open ’em
Dad ain’t making it home for Christmas
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
I go to make a fist, but I can’t make one, I’m frozen stiff
I yell, but nothing comes out, I’m crying inside, I shout
My vocal cords won’t permit me, I scream, but it’s not aloud
You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
I just thought about the aisle, I’ll never get to walk us down
Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
It’s ’bout to be 2008, how’s this happening now?
I’ve got so much more to do
And, Proof, I’m truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two
The thought of no more me and you
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
Doody, I’m trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
So many things—time, I’d give anything to rewind it
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
By pictures all on my walls and I couldn’t sleep at night ’cause
That image burned in my brain of you on that table
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
God, why did you take him?
I’m tryna keep his legacy alive, but I’m dying, where’s Nathan?
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
I’ll always love ya, and I’ll be in the back of your memory
And I know you’ll never forget me
Just don’t get sad when remembering
And, little bro, keep making me proud
You better marry that girl ’cause she’s faithfully down
And when you’re exchanging those sacred vows
Just know that if I could be there, I would
And should you ever see parenthood, I know you’ll be good at it
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
I actually learned a lot from you
You taught me what not to do
And, Mom, wish I’d have had the chance
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
Girls, please don’t get upset
I see them cheeks soaking and wet
As you squeeze hold of my neck, so forcibly, don’t wanna let
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
With every second, each closer to death
But suddenly, I feel my heart begin to beat slow
Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
Must’ve guessed the cheat codes to this shit
I’m tryna rewind time like a tape
Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake
From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take
To rewrite a mistake, I’m rewinding the tape

Part II: Castle Extended

(I don’t want it!)
I’ll put out this last album, then I’m done with it
One hundred percent finished, fed up with it
I’m hanging it up, fuck it!
Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know
That I’m a good person, though they portray me as cold
And if things should worsen, but I bet you they won’t
I’m pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet
Shred these old letters I wrote
All that old pathetic loathing, closing credits can roll
I’m proud to be back
I’m ’bout to, like a rematch, outdo Relapse
With Recovery, Mathers LP2
Help propel me to victory laps
Gas toward ’em and fast forward the past
Consider the last four minutes as
The song I’da sang to my daughters
If I’da made it to the hospital less than 2 hours later, but I fought it
And came back like a boomerang on ’em
Now a new day is dawnin’
I’m up, Tuesday, it’s mornin’—now I know

[Toilet flush]

[Intro: Kehlani]
Ashes blowin’ in the air
Our world’s on fire, but we don’t care, yeah
Wasted youth, always on the road
Never lookin’ back and we’re never gettin’ old
‘Cause the skies are black
But our heart’s made of gold
Fuck doin’ what you’re told
We’re goin’ nowhere fast

[Verse 1: Eminem]
I feel sorry for this beat, sympathy pains for this track
This road is takin’ me back
Down memory lane with this rap
I can still look out in this crowd, be wowed and be taken aback
I’m simply statin’ a fact
I had Wembley Stadium packed
But now we’re on a path headed to nowhere and fast
Another terrorist attacks
Like a tariff, blows half of Madison Square up, alas
We perish in the blast
But that doesn’t scare us, we pass
Knowin’ we’re fearless, ’cause we’re just—

[Pre-Chorus: Kehlani]
Ashes blowin’ in the air
Our world’s on fire, but we don’t care, yeah
Wasted youth, always on the road
Never lookin’ back and we’re never gettin’ old
‘Cause the skies are black
But our heart’s made of gold
Fuck doin’ what you’re told
We’re goin’ nowhere fast

[Chorus: Kehlani]
‘Cause we’re goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin no, goin’ nowhere
Goin’ nowhere fast

[Verse 2: Eminem]
Fuck doin’ what you’re told, act like a two-year old
Shit is soon to go kaboom and blow
Anyways; for MC’s it’s a funeral
When I’m devisin’ this rhyme
‘Cause I’m awake and you’re mourning
That’s why I rise and I shine
Like a new day has dawned on me
Gusto, guts, bravado
Nuts and plus I kick up dust and cuss a lot
I musta got you in somewhat of a debacle
‘Cause some stuff that’s awful
Really don’t mean nothin’ although
There’s a lot of shit I said in jest that’s tough to swallow
But if at times my heart it seems
Like it’s in the wrong place, it’s probably ’cause it’s on my sleeve
Keanu Reeves speed of life, avoid or veer
Or just steer toward it, we’re only lookin’ forward
But where we’re goin’, we have no idea
Nowhere to go, but hysterical, it’s gettin’ warm in here
I set the world on fire, was born to be an arsonist
Just one spark and it’s lit
But I’ma still get dark on this shit
Told you I’d leave my mark on this bitch—war machine
But you forced me in a corner
I’m sure to have somethin’ for your ear
And in the course of the assault is torture, it’s more severe
Go to war with me or end up blew to Timbuktu
I send at you a ten-ton nuke like Kim Jong-Un
And end up ruinin’ your career
All in all, it’s said and done
And at the end of my run I just rewind clocks, forever young
Make time stop, will I ever fall off? That day’ll never come
To the pine box, bitch fuck you! I’m better than I ever was
‘Til the bomb drops, hope it never does
But I’m not gonna sweat it ’cause
This world’s screwed, it’s already fucked
And I’m on top, so everyone’s just—

[Pre-Chorus: Kehlani]
Ashes blowin’ in the air
Our world’s on fire, but we don’t care, yeah
Wasted youth, always on the road
Never lookin’ back and we’re never gettin’ old
‘Cause the skies are black
But our heart’s made of gold
Fuck doin’ what you’re told
We’re goin’ nowhere fast

[Chorus: Kehlani]
‘Cause we’re goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin’ no, goin’ nowhere
Goin’ nowhere fast

[Bridge: Eminem]
You can’t tell us nothin’
Hard-headed and we’re stubborn
So, workin’ out the other when we’re young
Who knows what the future for us could hold?
Another shooter, uh oh
No more tomorrows, we’re done
And all we are is—

[Pre-Chorus: Kehlani]
Ashes blowin’ in the air
Our world’s on fire, but we don’t care, yeah
Wasted youth, always on the road
Never lookin’ back and we’re never gettin’ old
‘Cause the skies are black
But our heart’s made of gold
Fuck doin’ what you’re told
We’re goin’ nowhere fast

[Chorus: Kehlani]
‘Cause we’re goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin’ no, goin’ no
Goin’ no, goin’ nowhere
Goin’ nowhere fast

[Verse 1: Eminem]
We never saw from each other’s sides, or eye to eye
Just eye for eye, lie for lie, fight or flight
So much baggage, need a luggage rack
But we carry on with our public spats and our feuds
Up back in the news, love taps when I dissed you
Like it was fun, actually used to run back to the booth
Jump back in the studio, give you a tongue lashing, then you
Laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb stone
It was funny back in our youth
But then it wasn’t after we knew
That we were done and actually through (and actually through)
But if there’s one fraction of truth
If it could be spun back I would do
So many things different, ’cause it was such a dumbass excuse
You hit me once and that I would use
To continue the pattern of abuse
Why did I punch back? Girls, your dad is a scumbag, I’m confused
Because—

[Chorus: X Ambassadors]
How come you can be a lord and a loser?
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband

[Verse 2: Eminem]
You were the beat I loved with a writer’s block
Just a line that’s hot, that I forgot
We laughed a little, cried a lot
I’ll never forget when you came home and you held Hailie
Day before you went to jail and daily
How we’d wait for that mail lady
Or by the phone for Mom to call
And I watched you pull yourself up and we decided on
Giving it one more try despite it all
You’re my lightning rod when my sky gets dark
I’m your shiny rocks in that tiny box
When we tied the knot, when we broke the knot
Every line we crossed we were supposed to not
Every time we fought, the insults, they got… thrown too far
Words that we said that we didn’t mean
The words that we meant that we didn’t say
The ones that we thought that we shoulda said
Letters written that we coulda read
Which maybe woulda lead to some good instead
And had this put to bed
But I’d be lyin’ still if I said I wasn’t sittin’ here askin’ myself

[Chorus: X Ambassadors, Hailie Jade, Eminem]
How come you can be a lord and a loser?
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A good dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband (Dad) (you said)
Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply)
But there’s always another side to a good father
A great dad, but a bad husband

[Verse 3: Eminem]
We brought out the worst in each other
Someone had to make the sparring end
’Cause I loved you but I hated that me
And I don’t wanna see that side again
But I’m sorry, Kim
More than you could ever comprehend
Leaving you was fucking harder than
Sawing off a fucking body limb
Once upon a time where all we had
Maybe that was what drew us
To each other, it was true love
Shit that we never knew was possible
We might have loved each other too much
And maybe that’s what made us do what
We did to each other, all the screw-ups
‘Cause you always thought that you was
More in love with me, and I was thinking
I was more in love than you was
For all the times that we thought it worked
‘Til we saw how wrong we were
When the dust settles now and all the dirt
If I touch the rawest nerve all I want is for us not to hurt
And it’s been an exhaustive search to find the words
But I just heard “Mockingbird”
And got the urge to jot some verses and thoughts
The purpose was not to stir up or open wounds
I’ve caused a few, and so have you
Or argue whose fault it was, partly yours
Partly mine, but really no one’s
This is so tough, I’m gettin’ choked up
Oh fuck it, we both suck
We broke up, got back together
We both thought we had forever
Not bad people, just bad together
We were so nuts, backstabbed each other
Another blow struck, but there’s no duckin’ this blow
‘Cause it’s over and it’s closure
But I’m not so sure how to close this
I just don’t know how some people can be so good
At one thing and so fucked at a whole nother
Shit, it’s no wonder

[Chorus: X Ambassadors, Hailie Jade, Eminem]
How come, how come, you can be a lord and a loser?
How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?
A good dad, but a bad husband
Why are you a good father?
A great dad, but a bad husband (Dad) (you said)
Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply)
But there’s always another side to a good father
A great dad, but a bad husband

[Chorus: Liz Rodrigues and Eminem]
I built this castle
Now we are trapped on the throne
I’m sorry we’re alone
I wrote my chapter
You’ll turn the page when I’m gone
I hope you’ll sing along
This is your song
I just want you to know that I ain’t scared
Whatever it takes to raise you, I’m prepared
To do whatever, to do whatever
December 1st, 1995, dear Hailie
This is your song

[Verse 1: Eminem]
You’ll be coming out of Mommy’s stomach soon
I better do something quick if I’ma be able to support you
I can barely support me, but as long as you’re healthy
That’s all that matters for the time being
But obviously assuming you will be
Just thinking ahead, I’ma make it if it kills me
Let’s see how far I can take it with this music
I’m getting sick of chasing this illusion
Sorry for sloppy writing
The pen in my hand is shaking, please excuse me
Dad’s a little nervous, but at the same time excited
If I use this same energy while I’m saying rhymes and write them
With the same passion and the same exact enthusiasm
As I’m using in this letter, maybe they can feel me as I’m
Trying to build these castles out of sand, baby girl
For you to sit on the throne, I got plans, baby girl
Welcome to Mom and Dad’s crazy world
Love, Daddy, maple-flavored kisses, buttered pancakes, and syrup

[Chorus: Liz Rodrigues and Eminem]
I built this castle
Now we are trapped on the throne
I’m sorry we’re alone
I wrote my chapter
You’ll turn the page when I’m gone
I hope you’ll sing along
This is your song
I just want you to know that I ain’t scared
Whatever it takes to raise you, I’m prepared
To do whatever, to do whatever
December 1st, 1996, dear Hailie

[Verse 2: Eminem]
You got your momma’s personality, same eyes as I got
Her beautiful smile, but your ears are the same size as mine are
Sorry for that, a little minor mishap
But you’ll grow into them, baby, I’m on the grind now
I’m doing little shows, open mics, all-nighters at studios
While I’m tryna keep the lights on
Why does it seem like I’m so close to this dream, yet so far?
I just keep steering, I’ma turn into someone
I haven’t the slightest clue what I’ma do if it falls through
You took your first steps today, you’ll probably walk soon
My Infinite CD flopped, too many soft tunes
They’re talking bad about Dad, it’s ticking me off too
Makes me feel like I don’t belong or something, ooh
I think I might have just stumbled onto something new
Got a prediction for the future, I’m hoping it’s you
Open this envelope when you’re older and it holds true

[Chorus: Liz Rodrigues and Eminem]
I built this castle
Now we are trapped on the throne
I’m sorry we’re alone
I wrote my chapter
You’ll turn the page when I’m gone
I hope you’ll sing along
This is your song
I just want you to know that I ain’t scared
Whatever it takes to raise you, I’m prepared
To do whatever, to do whatever
December 24th, 2007, dear Hailie

[Verse 3: Eminem]
Now if you found these letters, I guess I better try to explain
A lot’s happened in between them since I rised to this fame
I’ve said your name but always tried to hide your face
This game is crazy, I wanted to claim my love for you, but dang
I never knew it’d be like this
If I did I wouldn’t have done it
You ain’t asked for none of this shit, now you’re being punished?!
Things that should’ve been private with me and your mother is public
I can’t stomach, they can take this fame back, I don’t want it
I’ll put out this last album then I’m done with it
One-hundred percent finished
Fed up with it, I’m hanging it up, fuck it
Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know
That I’m a good person, though they portray me as cold
And if things should worsen, don’t take this letter I wrote
As a goodbye note, ’cause your dad’s at the end of his rope
I’m sliding down a slippery slope
Anyways sweetie, I better go
I’m getting sleepy, love, Dad… shit, I don’t know

*Ingesting drugs* – *body falling*

[Chorus: Ed Sheeran]
I’ve been a liar, been a thief
Been a lover, been a cheat
All my sins need holy water
Feel it washing over me
Oh, little one, I don’t want to admit to something
If all it’s gonna cause is pain
Truth and my lies right now are falling like the rain
So let the river run

[Verse 1: Eminem]
He’s coming home with his neck scratched, to catch flack
Sweat jackets and dress slacks, mismatch
On his breath’s Jack, he’s a sex addict
And she just wants to exact revenge and get back
It’s a chess match, she’s on his back like a jet pack
She’s kept track of all his Internet chats
And guess who just happens to be moving on to the next?
Actually, just shit on my last chick and she has what my ex lacks
‘Cause she loves danger, psychopath
And you don’t fuck with no man’s girl, even I know that
But she’s devised some plan
To stab him in the back, knife in hand
Says the relationship’s hanging by a strand
So she’s been on the web lately
Says maybe she’ll be my Gwen Stacy, to spite her man
And I know she’s using me to try to play him
I don’t care, hi Susanne, but I shoulda said “Bye Susanne”
After the first night, but tonight I am

[Chorus: Ed Sheeran]
I’ve been a liar, been a thief
Been a lover, been a cheat
All my sins need holy water
Feel it washing over me
Oh, little one, I don’t want to admit to something
If all it’s gonna cause is pain
The truth and my lies now are falling like the rain
So let the river run

[Verse 2: Eminem]
One-night stand, turned into night staying
He was calling so might scram, now we hug tight and
He found out, now she feels deserted and used
‘Cause he left, so what? He did it first to her too
Now how am I supposed to tell this girl that we’re through?
It’s hard to find the words, I’m aloof, nervous, ensued
Don’t want us to hurt, but what you deserve is the truth
Don’t take it personal, I just can’t say this in person to you
So I revert to the studio like hole in the wall diners
Don’t have to be reserved in a booth
I just feel like the person who I’m turning into’s
Irreversible, I preyed on you like it’s church at the pew
And now that I got you I don’t want you
Took advantage in my thirst to pursue
Why do I do this dirt that I do?
Get on my soapbox and preach, my sermon and speech
Detergent and bleach is burning the wound
‘Cause now with her in the womb
We can’t bring her in this world, shoulda knew
To use protection ‘fore I bit into your forbidden fruit
Fuck!

[Chorus: Ed Sheeran]
I’ve been a liar, been a thief
Been a lover, been a cheat
All my sins need holy water
Feel it washing over me
Oh, little one, I don’t want to admit to something
If all it’s gonna cause is pain
The truth and my lies now are falling like the rain
So let the river run

[Bridge: Eminem & Ed Sheeran]
My name’s (ooh), my name’s (ooh)
Denver (ooh), river run
Call me (ooh), call me (ooh)
River (ooh), we’ll let the river run

[Verse 3: Eminem]
Always the bridesmaid, never “The bride, hey!”
Fuck can I say? If life was a highway
The seat was an enclave, I’d be swerving in five lanes
Speeds at a high rate, like I’m sliding on ice, maybe
That’s why I may have came at you sideways
I can’t keep my lies straight
What I made you terminate, my baby
This love triangle left us in a wreck, tangled
What else can I say? It was fun for a while
Bet I really woulda loved your smile
Didn’t really wanna abort, but fuck it
What’s one more lie, to tell an unborn child?

[Chorus: Ed Sheeran & Eminem]
I’ve been a liar, been a thief
Been a lover, been a cheat
All my sins need holy water
Feel it washing over me
Oh, little one (I’m sorry)
I don’t want to admit to something (I fucked up)
If all it’s gonna cause is pain
The truth and my lies now are falling like the rain
So let the river run